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About Me Member Shadow Deviant Adika Clemendor23/Male/Trinidad and Tobago Recent Activity Deviant for 3 Years
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ah hope and pray...
hope and pray...
jah shine him light my way...
hope and pray...
hope and pray...
mih hope me neva stray...

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: within myself and so far,without...
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: comfortable
  • Print preference: legible
  • Interests: learning and expressing myself
  • Favourite movie: Ong Bak
  • Favourite band or musician: baba maal,massive attack,T-Pain and so forth
  • Favourite genre of music: anythin that sounds good
  • Favourite artist: God and all my fellow DA's
  • Favourite poet or writer: terry prachett,sun tzu
  • Favourite photographer: *zemotion, =nohorimpianti777
  • Favourite style of art: interesting
  • Operating System: Human
  • MP3 player of choice: well i guess i'm one of the ISheep
  • Shell of choice: turtle
  • Wallpaper of choice: random
  • Skin of choice: smooth and tattooed
  • Favourite game: need for speed most wanted/carbon,def jam:fight for new york,World of Warcraft,diablo 2
  • Favourite gaming platform: PC
  • Favourite cartoon character: vash the stampede,samurai jack,afro samurai,me
  • Personal Quote: live by honour,kill by stealth..
  • Tools of the Trade: adobe photoshop CS2,Illustrator CS2(most recently) and mih camera (gettin it soon,hang on!)

well...

Thu Mar 19, 2009, 9:09 AM
  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: Time Machine- T-pain
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: the colours around me fade to grey
  • Playing: music
  • Eating: not much
  • Drinking: i wish
i almost got that magic back...
almost..

then shit happened and i felt myself slipping downward again...

so not happy but i have to keep up this smiling facade because so many people around me are so ignorant,selfish, self-centered bastards that consistently tell me to take others into consideration (i.e. suck it up and make THEM feel better) yet they lack the ability to see past their own crooked noses...

i guess i'm bitching and complaining...being a little to emo....
but this is the only place i can let it out without fear of retribution.
without fear of being made to feel low for feeling low.

too sad to cry
too angry to hate..

i can't even begin to channel it into a creative medium so i can at least bullshit myself into thinking something positive can come out of it.
i'm too heavily medicated to see straight...yet i'm expected to push harder,faster than anyone else...

those who i expected to be there for me aren't...those i hoped would understand just seem to not care enough to try...

well...i'm out of steam so i guess that's it...
don't pass judgement on me...i just needed to get some of it off my chest...

back to feeling lonely
back to not being able to see straight
back to that little dark hole..

i hope you're doing better than i am.

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Comments


:icondannie3d:
Heyyy youuu.
Thank you for the fav. :)
Hows you anyways?

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Take a chance you stupid ho.
:iconxthestampede:
tres lame these days...got mah heart brokken into moar pieces...plus ahm sick...so i'm just hangin in dere :(

tryin to be positive!

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Watashi Wa Tensai Des...we all have lies we tell ourselves, this is mine...because if you don't know your materials, all you do is express your inability to express yourself...
:icondannie3d:
Yes PLEASE be positive.. thats basically the only thinhg you can do unless you wanna embed yourself into MORE misery.
You can note me if you wanna talk or anything. I'm all for it.

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Take a chance you stupid ho.
:iconxthestampede:
odd how the friends here are more friendly than the ones out here :)

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Watashi Wa Tensai Des...we all have lies we tell ourselves, this is mine...because if you don't know your materials, all you do is express your inability to express yourself...
:icondannie3d:
So I've noticed as well... :hug:

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Take a chance you stupid ho.
:iconconzpiracy:
:iconbigthanks1::iconbigthanks2::iconbigthanks3:

Appreciate the support :)

Conzz

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:iconconzpiracy:
:iconbigthanks1::iconbigthanks2::iconbigthanks3:

Really appreciate the :+devwatch: and the support - much respect :)

Conzz

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:iconxthestampede:
just do the damn thing and i will support like a new wonderbra...deuces!!

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Watashi Wa Tensai Des...we all have lies we tell ourselves, this is mine...because if you don't know your materials, all you do is express your inability to express yourself...
:iconconzpiracy:
haha ;p

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:iconlord-kevinz:
thank you for+ Watchers

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comeback to me plz . i wantz you

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